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Dicen Que Soy.

And I know it sounds kinda cruel and uncalled for But.. You shouldn't be this happy. You've done nothing to achieve it. I hate how you're one of those people that whatever you say will happen happens! We were both put in a fucked up situation and I've been the one with the short stick. I have tried over and over again to dig myself out, i preached it, was optimistic about it, nurtured the hope and you get the winnings? Bullshit! How is it possible that somebody so cold and shallow gets to play for the better team. Maybe that's part of my reason. Maybe that's a part of my decision but I've chosen and he's right I better stick to it. And I do. I don't understand how this can be. It drives me crazy.

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i was 2 mins short. I forgot the obvious and I got distracted. I was about to board. Thrilled and optimistic. This was my new start. I was about to embark in my journey to seal the deal. And i was 2 mins short. If only I had got on. Replaced whatever I was missing with a sense of peace within me. I guess I rather have risked the possibility of bumping into you. I was breathless as I dropped my suitcase to the floor. Almost a bit excited. There she was. Tall, slim Brunette with the body of a spanish guitar, with more swagger than a top fashion model, and a narcissism to her that you could capture from miles away. Yup, you do me proud. You stuck to your word and upgraded. And here I was. Your old milk carton that had reached her expiration date. Fooling myself thinking I could really find myself after you. I lost myself almost two years ago and i have been no where to be found. There are just some things that time can't even change.

TY.

i dont know who you are or what your story is. But today we both fell asleep on one another's shoulders on the bus. As cheesy as that sounds: Thank you for the human physical touch though it was unintended. I felt something bitter leave me and a sense of hope flush through me. :)

lovers in the night.

The smell of soil beneath my bare feet, feeling the thorns of tossed away roses, rubbing off the after math of run down mascara. Where am i tonight? I seek sanctuary you see. My dress is filled with sweat and my hair is drenched in pouring rain. My eyes are wide open. They piece together the clues you were just waiting for me to unravel. Here I am baby, i'm figuring out your mystery. I found where X marks the spot. My teeth are chattering, my head is pounding. I said i wouldn't second guess my choice. Here is my answer. Are you ready darling? Let me demonstrate what it looks like to love. What i meant when I said I couldn't lose another again. I'm gripping onto my exit as if has become a part of me. Positioning it. I must have been down this road before. The night mutes on the sound of release, the rain gets louder




bang.

midnight .

you're waiting for me to come home. And i am never going to come home. my closets empty and the bed is hollow. All i'm leaving is my imprint on my pillow and a few words written in lipstick across the bathroom mirror: You'll remember me.

Cleo.

past you in traffic and didn't even pay much focus to your road blocks. I braked at all the stop signs but I looked further and I saw what was really in front of me. The real reason as to why I can not drive down this road. Sometime, it feels like I need to abandon my stepping stones. Let me pack my bags and hit the yellow brick road on toe. Let me grab my sheets of papers and gather up the tears. I promise to use them towards a man that truly deserves them. I promise to write poems on lovers stories that deserve credibility. My feet will crack but will not break, my lungs will fill up with sand from this desert of discovery, the wind will wrap my hair all around my canvas. It will remind me to hold my ground, to love myself. I will not fold on this gamble of love that i've taken. I'm going to discover places I never believed existed. I'm going to take wisdom from the gypsy of the night and I will remember the words of the alchemist, I will look to the circus freak and take away beauty and talent. I am going to live well, i am going to love much, and I will continue laughing often: even at the engraves on my wrists, the extra pounds on my hips, and the trauma possessed all through me.