Muscle aches

I'll remember our summer get away, remember how many nights we shared the same spark, ill remember drinks over laughter. How you lifted a room once your comfort sunk in.

I'll always remember the woman you've molded me into. How your touch at times was enough to get me through a painful night. I'll remember your smile and the light in your eyes that I hoped would wake up senses in a universe unknown.

You were my greatest lesson, my most beautiful prize. You brought me back from the dead when nobody saw rebirth.
I wish goodbyes weren't so painful. I wish I could keep holding you as we said our final words, I wish I could leave my fingerprints all over your body so all would know that I've touched your world permanently, some way, some how.

I'm a survivor at this point , it's true. And I've never been so good to myself until now. I face myself for the first time , that also is true. But never ever did I imagine following through in life with lessons you've taught me. Never did I imagine that something that feels so good can hurt so bad. I've never known such irony until now.

This Love.

I hope all the songs I've played for you make sense now , I hope all I've given up has caught up and I hope it breaks your entire life living it without me by your side, holding your name down no matter what. This all breaks my heart over and over again. Thinking that there's no way back destroys me on the inside. For the first time ever I've given away my most prized possession. I've lost my best friend, I've lost the world and I don't know if I can walk around in it without you. Why would I ever want to?