Awake my soul.

As I listen to all the new music I've come to learn about this summer, I can't help smile at myself when I think about all the subconcious messages almost every writer has to share. It's like the warm weather brought many lovers together. I can't help but be thankful for the opportunity that crawled beneath me as I was trying to control my life from crashing apart. Am I exhausted. But am I thankful and happy with how much knowledge I have added to my resume of lifestyles that have come from riches and shame. All this music has inspired me to write again. I've also picked up the most enlightening books that have helped along my journey. If I could only tattoo every verse to my body! The Sun has kissed my skin and has left me a couple bruises on patio nights. Life down here is truly different; every moment has had it's beauty.

I'm glad to have awaken in the city. Bringing in Spring and now saying goodbye to Summer makes me feel bittersweet. I appreciate where I come from much more than I use to. Working away in a trendy area and dealing with "tasteful" people has really humbled me along as made me stronger. I now understand what "No" can do and how much power comes along with standing up for yourself. I still have a long way to go. Loving yourself unconditionally has had many challenges. I've forgotten how to shine bright but I see the light and I know that with patience, and kindness.. I can get back to my R e a l self.

I just need a moment of honesty. Thanks Ya'll.

Rival.

I completely understand that I've drawn away from customs. Nothing in my heart has changed-That much i know. I can't connect with people the way I once use to. I miss this. Being able to sip on some wine, talk about more than just my worry's. I hate it just as much as you. And I'm trying really hard to push through this black cloud. I'm not asking for redemption but rather humility to what I once was vs what I am now.