Undiscovered, #1 quiz

Tell Me About Yourself Survey

Name: Melina Natalie Velasquez Escalante


Birthday:January 25th 1990.


Birthplace: North York, Toronto.


Current Location: Rexdale, Etobicoke


Eye Color:Brown


Hair Color:Blonde


Height:5"6


Right Handed or Left Handed:Right


Your Heritage: Hispanic/Canadian/European


The Shoes You Wore Today: High Boots.


Your Weakness: Kindness


Your Fears: Being alone forever


Your Perfect Pizza: Green olives.


Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Depend on ONLY myself.


Your Most Overused Phrase On Instant Messenger: "LOL"


Thoughts First Waking Up: I'm still alive but I feel funny...


Your Best Physical Feature: Lips


Your Bedtime:Midnight


Your Most Missed Memory: Playing in front of my house with chalk.


Pepsi or Coke: Neither.


MacDonalds or Burger King: McD's


Single or Group Dates: Single


Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea


Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate


Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino


Do you Smoke: On occasion


Do you Swear: Like a fucking sailor.


Do you Sing: I've started to again.


Do you Shower Daily: Yes.


Have you Been in Love: I'm not sure.


Do you want to go to College: Again, yes.


Do you want to get Married: I'm not sure.


Do you belive in yourself: Most of the time until somebody crushes my self esteem.


Do you get Motion Sickness: Nope.


Do you think you are Attractive: I do.


Are you a Health Freak: Nope; Constantly trying to be.


Do you get along with your Parents: Now that i'm older, Yes


Do you like Thunderstorms: Lovee them. There's one going on right now



Do you play an Instrument: Not anymore.


In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes, some wine.


In the past month have you Smoked: I have.


In the past month have you been on Drugs: Yes.


In the past month have you gone on a Date: Nope.


In the past month have you gone to a Mall:Yes.


In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:I have not.


In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Yes. It's my fav<3333


In the past month have you been on Stage: No way!


In the past month have you been Dumped: I wouldn't call it exactly that.


In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Not in years.


In the past month have you Stolen Anything: LOL yeah.


Ever been Drunk: Tipsy..


Ever been called a Tease: I have. But trust me, it's the other way around.


Ever been Beaten up: Emotionally , Yeah.


Ever Shoplifted: Nope.


How do you want to Die: Happy and In love with my life.


What do you want to be when you Grow Up: beautiful on the inside & out.


What country would you most like to Visit: Brazil, Australia, France, Scotland.


Number of Drugs I have taken: 3


Number of CDs I own: Too many


Number of Piercings: 13


Number of Tattoos:5


Number of things in my Past I Regret: Too many.


In a Boy/Girl...

Favorite Eye Color:Hazel


Favorite Hair Color: Brown


Short or Long Hair:Short


Height: Taller than me


Weight: Doesn't matter. Love is Love.


Best Clothing Style: Doesn't matter.

For me.

not knowing who you are is the worse feeling in the world. I thought i had conquered that mystery and commenced actually enjoying the journey in success. As of lately everything feels unbalanced and with no sense of definition. I don't trust anybody or anything. I can't even begin to trust myself. My feelings, my thoughts, my inspirations, my motives. I am so lost in the denial of who I am, what I stand for and what I became a result of. I can't let everything around me humble me anymore. Being this proper to everyone is taking a huge toll on who I am and what I deserve. I don't know what I deserve anymore! My mom always said growing up that you should treat your neighbor how you'd like to be treated and I agree. But lately, I just feel used. I can't stand to be selfish but it seems to be what many believe I should begin to do. Thing is, I've never been good at being there for myself. How do I commence? I've been on this road of discovery for many years now. I have now finally understood that the solitude in my life has been necessary and the wishful thinking for the place in my bed had to be killed. I've attempted to shift my karmic balance and take a risk at the Universe's expense; where are the fruits of that labor?

I constantly feel myself being afraid of everything around me. I have these intense knots in the pit of my stomach, my heart begins to beat fast, peoples words begin to sound like a foreign language that I can not comprehend. What happened? I had it together. I was so set to finally embark upon the ultimate thing I keep working towards. Then the past decided to come up again, and the boys ran back and they left and came back again and again. Friends said goodbye, new ones were made. I hated myself a year ago and I fully gave birth to a new me eights months ago. Tell me, was it all a bluff? Cause I surely don't know.

What do I know?
That every night I pray so hard to God to grant me the serenity I do not have.
I beg for somebody that I adore to make me feel beautiful like i had learned to do for my own being.
I force myself to remember how happy things began to feel.

All I have left are my thoughts and my talents.
to inspire myself to begin doing what i use to love.
because love is all that can set me free at this point.
i feel trapped within a dream twisted at the end of my womb.

Pero la vida es mi rumba, y los amores mis inspiraciones
por eso sigo aqui defrutando de lo poco que me queda de nuestra memoria.

Let it burn.

my hearts been big, it takes way more than you deserve, could ever deserve.
and my words are strong:heavy like weights, firm like gravity.
Of course I could sit around and have you now watch my triumphs.
I can also walk away, and take back everything of me; new and old.
Truth me told though; i cant stop looking for you.
This was the last time that i could ever force myself to say words. Words with strong meanings and firm holds.
My pronunciation strong like the orchestra that sits within my soul.
I'm not taking anything from your core, i'm requiring my backbone; the one that you shield me from.
But nothing gets better than the hope for you to tell me not to walk, walk away.
Yet, i kiss you goodbye and the night is all that can hold my own.