Because not every girl gets what she wants

Kissing boys has always given me the butterflies that leave me breathless. I've loved the touch of foreign lips on new territory just as much as the next girl. Kissing boys has always left me with drive in my veins; being that devoured is magical. It's as if this power manifests itself & gives you a taste of your long waiting future.
Kissing boys is painful. They tend to all have the same qualifications when imprinting on your body. They leave aromas, they cause lingering moments where all you could ever hope for is the kiss of a man who can hold you down more than gravity, love you more than for a night. The man who can wake up your senses & you know that he wants more than just your physicality.

While kissing boys is thrilling, kissing a man, well, that's a blessing.

Self discovery.

Hey guys! Wish I had more time on my hands to write. Pure bullshit. I wish I prioritized myself to my writing like I once use to. But that's okay. I'm stating it outside of my mind, and not through my lips that I, Melina Velasquez have lost motivation and pride in writing. And maybe that's due to a lot of different factors. Why the honesty?

I wanted to share with those that read my blog that there's an amazing book that has become part of my evolution to brighter and amazing things! I'm not one of those " I found a book and it changed my life" girls but you really gotta check this one out. It's called Self-Discipline in 10 Days : How to Go From Thinking to Doing.

Honestly, it covers much more than just self discipline. It really makes you head to the root of a lot of questions you've never answered and it will definitely make you uneasy at first. But it's so rewarding once you've begun reading it. It's not a long book and it's so simple to use. Great read overall because the Author does an amazing job at making you feel like he's talking to you one on on. Check it out, there might be something that works for you. I'm finding it to be a great tool for myself and it's allowed me to become more self caring as a human; That was, my number one goal ;).

Finally,I've left myself with my jaw wide open. The clarity of it all has never spoken more truth.

Sometimes we just really giveaway our souls.

It's nothing but a sunburn. It will lift and ache until a new layer of skin can take care of your artificial beauty.

Take me away.

I felt you , the way I do many nights in my own constructed reality. Funny thing is, I don't wish for you, don't crave you in my dreams. I have found territory for your memory. A place I can preserve your beauty and our sins. A place far from my heart where you can't rot me away.
But I felt you. Inside my bones, between my hair, underneath all these years of forgiveness. You tasted the same, same aroma, same touch, same look. You acted the same. Same insults, same games. Same ending. You have a funny way of making me doubt for a minute if I ever had a way to breakaway from it all before it went to shreds. I don't know anymore. But I still thank you for your visits and your long awaited presence.

Kelly Clarkson - Breathe (2AM) (Anna Nalick cover)

There's letters that haven't been sealed just yet, stamps that haven't been placed on white paper. I don't know how to send you my goodbye and finalize it. No clue how to tell you I must forget you for the sake of my life. I don't have the heart to break yours. This was never easy but it just continues to get more difficult and I can't keep putting you before myself. So here it goes; All the things I could never pronounce..

This fire burning inside my inner core has no comparison. Light that shines so bright in the darkness of a cold winter night. This anticipation that makes me want to trade it all in for happiness. I sell my heart thin. Ill never get a currency adequate with its worth. But somehow, it's the only way out.