we are in the same vehicle and your eyes are on the road. I, am just looking at the scenery trying to hopefully stumble across something bigger than this. Something ends up catching my eye and i evacuate the car before you even have a chance to put it in park. You ask me "where are you going?" and I begin to walk towards it. A helpless little dog, injured in the middle of the valley and as I go to touch it, it speaks to me. It looks right into my eyes with rage and claws its way onto my flesh. The blood immediately starts pouring and all of a sudden he's gone. You are running behind me, not understanding what happened. I can't even begin to explain to you what just happened. It all happened to soon. you give me your shirt and wrap it around the wound on my arm and you take me home.
2:34 am and I wake up with a sharp loud that ran across my head. I don't wanna leave my room. I have a feeling this is all going to end so bad. But I do anyways. Something in me tells me that somebodies salvation is up to me. I walk out in the hallway that becomes an exhibition of people i have never met and most especially never lived with . I hear a noise from the room across from mine and i don't even question whether or not this is a good idea. I turn the nob and my eyes scream louder than I ever could. What are they doing? Scientific experiments on one another? Some kinda cult? Regardless, it's disturbing. I wanna turn around but i've seen too much. Will they let me go? I run out towards the sea of people and I come across another door. My whole family is there, telling me to not do it that it's not worth it, and i go through it and I find myself face to face with that same dog in the valley. His eyes are testing me, almost giving me a chance to turn back but I know I have to go through with whatever they don't want me to see and i proceed to the next door and as I open it.
There you are. The one thing i've been missing like the air in my lungs is right in front of me. You look at me so flawlessly and I smile because for the first time ever you are happy to see me. You eyes tell me you're sorry, your embrace makes me forgive you. And you take my hand and press your lips against mine and tell me how much you've missed me, how sorry you are for all the time wasted, for all the bruises, for all the sins committed at my expense. And the world melts. Just like that. I forget about the months of suffering and self indulgent and the promises to myself that i preach day after day and I take you back, even if it's for that night. I can't believe this is happening to me! You are back in my life! We begin to catch up on the months that have just gone below surface and you begin to speak in plural about the plans you have for this new future that has seconds ago been planted.You hold me tight. So tight that for a second I am not sure if i can grasp for air and I close my eyes, and put my head on your shoulders and then tears start flowing and just like that, i vanish.
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