Sin-cere

My hearts been feeling heavy lately. I wish there was a way I could heal the people I love from the things that try to break their spirits apart. I've learned that the world is a crazy, mystical place and it loves playing roulette. Nothing is permanent and by the time you are settling into great opportunities and stillness, a storm comes along and swallows our shores. I might not be making much sense. Then again, matters of the heart are always wordless, for the most part.

I'm watching my family finally identifying with their past. I guess we can only run so long from what makes us human, what makes us strong. We take such a good amount of time creating this false sense of identity to expose to the world that we don't realize how much of our natural human instincts we keep tucked away underneath layers of memories and trauma.

Love has found a way to destroy lovers from what they remember. Nobody has an idea anymore as to what keeps them moving in life, what makes them want to reach for the sky, No idea how to give the heart what it wants and still be embraced unconditionally by those that leave us dry. I, myself feel disconnected from such beautiful souls. To pronouncate the same values that I held onto so tightly now, seems forced. It feels as somebody as taken a blow to my truths. To almost everything that made me whole.

I suppose these are life trails. So they say. And the intention always is to come back to balance. Maybe I lost balance when I decided to love without restrictions, without care for the consequences, withou thinking who I was loving and how much it would rob away from my core.

I long for a heart that can cure itself from all the damage that this world has left on us. I beg that my spirit remains wild as I find the rhythm to the body I was introduced to. I yearn for a peace so deep within me that finally lets me find a light within the darkness.