Thursday, July 19, 2012
Little soul.
in order to experience anything at all, the exact opposite of it will appear. "It is a great gift," God said, "because without it, you could not know what anything is like. You could not know Warm without Cold, Up without Down, Fast without Slow. You could not know Left without Right, Here without There, Now without Then."
It`s true.
I guess these mix of emotions are normal under the circumstances. But seriously, I`m done thinking I wasn`t enough, I could have been better, I should have done more.
It`s true.. `why in the world would I want to be with somebody who does not want to be with me`
I know I have scars, tons of them. I know I sometimes continue to scrap my knees and I can be a walking mess from time to time. But I am enough.
Bittersweet.
I have picked up some bad habits through the years.
Pulling on tobacco as frequently as I take in fresh air. Taking a toke off my favorite plant everyday, binging on love, and drinking a little too much. But I never imagined having consequences as heartfelt as the one that sits in the pit of my stomach at this very moment.
I never ever thought too much of a good thing could be bad. Over excessive attention on anything that is not in my core: Has bitter`d my soul a little. You could say i`m resentful. Resentful that for you, for you bad habit, I was ready to conquer it all, give it everything I have to give. Yet, for my self healing, and personal growth: I would never trade in this much of my ways for better tomorrow`s.
I guess there`s some bad habits that are hard to kill.
You`re gonna be the biggest, baddest of them all.
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