I have a challenge.
I'm determined to grow as tall as trees, and shine as bright as pearly whites, and sing my triumphs up on stage for the whole world to see.
All this I will take away from you.
I keep insisting that I'm no woman like the woman I am when i'm with you.
I'll invest all my strength and time into blossoming beside you.
So that when we really do expire in each others eyes I can leave with my seeds and less scars too.

Heroin.

Like a bad habit. An addiction so deep in your veins. No amount of self love that can save you. because he's endless, past anything that's ever become a part of you. It becomes your sanity in moments of ruins. Your only truth.

And it scares you.
To the point that you wonder, "will this craving ever end?"

I don't know what to tell you anymore.
Just be prepared for the consequences of your recent investments.
Interest's high.

The hardest part of being alone.. getting too use to it.
<3

Truth .

I've never really written about it. Never fully given it recognition. I have always put it second, thought it was silly. I've packed it behind a dictionary filled with new vocabulary. I've disguised it behind a new red dress and black heels in the back of my closet.
I've almost let it sit there, watching from left to right so truly confused.
It's never had a home. No address, no destination, no foundation. No place to heal, no distinguished way to begin, no possible way to say goodbye.
I've never really written about it.
maybe it's time.

it's a little breath taking.
kinda funny in its own ironic way.
a little bit of a coincidence.
but it feels just right for the very first time.
for all the right reasons.

gotta love the one you're with.
and i've learned i have me,myself,& i.
here we go..

Love & other drugs.

i was getting ready for bed.
saying goodbye to the day.
thinking about the advice that a good friend gave me.
"keep pushing through".

then you called.
and made my heart sank.
____________________________.

you can't do this to me anymore.
i'm over feeling like i can't choose my direction.

"no signal" my phone went.
maybe a sign, possibly a salvation.
i won't answer the phone for the remainder of the night.
goodnight.